Forever Bound To My Own Sorrow?

Well for a while now I've been spiraling down into depression and I'm finding it hard to cast it away, I myself feel like it's time for me to "move on" but it's been hard considering the fact that I am cooped up on my home all day unable to leave,I have nothing that I can do for entertainment and I every few hours or so I suddenly black out for at least an hour and find myself on the floor with an alchemy circle on my stomach. It's not satanic, I have already looked it up,it's a traditional Italian alchemy circle. Does anyone have any suggestions for me. Please do not ask me why I feel this way it reminds me even more of my pain.