Thursday, August 11, 2011

Is this the baby blues or PPD?

It's been 11 days since I have had my daughter. Every day, I have felt exhausted and like I can't think straight. I always read stories of moms having these fuzzy, gushing, loving feelings towards their little ones right away- but I just don't have that. I care about my little girl, but I feel like I haven't "bonded" with her yet. I was a super active person before having a baby, and now I am cooped up in the house 24/7. I EBF and I don't have a pump yet. In fact, I am scared to pump because I feel like I don't know what I am doing, if it will cause oversupply, etc. My little girl only sleeps well when she is laying on my chest. I know it is "bad", but she sleeps on my chest every night while I am laying on the couch. My poor DH sleeps on the floor next to us. We have hardly spent any time together, as he only had 3 days off of work after I gave birth. I have a lovely mom who comes over 3 days a week, and I always feel better when she is hear. I'm not sure if this is PPD, but I am so scared of having it. I want to keep BFing, and i'm afraid i won't be able to if i have to take some kind of medication. I just want to be the best, happiest mom for my little girl and love her with all my heart, but I just feel like I am not in that place yet. Is this PPD or just the Baby Blues?

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